I don't like doctors anymore. All my faith in them has gone because ..because of me.

Psychology was okay but I was distracted throughout. Today has been hell to be honest.

One of my worst fears, one thing that always drags me down was just confirmed, and made worse for me. All my self-confidence has now vanished.

(I don't want to speak the truth or say the words just yet)

I'm feeling really numb. I'm not exactly thinking loads, I'm not doing much of anything.

My Psychology teacher, at the end of the double lesson, asked me what was wrong and why I was so quiet. I've seen him three times in lesson and he knew something was wrong whereas my friends didn't.

So.. after lesson we sat down and talked. I cried again. (I had cried at the bus stop and on the bus to college, pretty much all the way because of the doctor and stuff) My teacher is going to get in touch with the college councillor to see if that'll help and early next week I have to talk to him. He reassured me and was there for me. I dunno...

He's really nice. I hope this works out because I think we were both realising that if it didn't my education was going to fucking disappear. (It almost already has).

So I don't know what to say. All I know is talking isn't what I'm going to be doing a lot of today.