It's happening again. This total avoidance of important work and just getting down to doing totally stupid things, like write this entry when I should be doing my Biology coursework. I feel like crying over my hopelessness but I can't cry and I know I'm hopeless.

Meh. Whatever. They can't report me to the counsillor for not doing work BECAUSE I ALREADY GO TO THE COUNSILLOR. Ha! I'm already fucked up so this lack of Biology work won't prove a motherfucking thing yo. Shaaaame.

Yes I'm in trouble. I do not care. I don't know why. This happened to me when I was in secondary school and despite the fact you continually tell yourself this time it will be different, I knew it wouldn't be. I am just this useless and stupid and fucked up.

I'm feeling all angsty today.

Heh. I would say I need help but I'm getting it and it just isn't fucking helping. So yeah I'll continue to go until it annoys me so much I scream and either get sent away.. AWAYYYYYY or put on medication. EITHER WAY I lose.

Tomorrow will suck just as much as today did. Yay..