So I am way proud of my previous entry, I wrote it in some kind of a trance and a) I didn't want to escape it and b) I couldn't escape it. It's all true though, all of what I wrote is some of inner thoughts that I usually don't acknowledge but something was wrong with me at that time and all I was left with (kinda) was my writing. There ya go I suppose.

The past two days have been slow and ookay except during the day I have been ultra depressed, but when I come home I'm all fine and there's no one around to share my happiness with. Sucky I suppose. But at least the good feeling only last an hour, if that. I then wander into this state of emotional unbalance.

Hum. Just another note; I hope that Mr J is alright. I truly do. I know what he is going through is oh so painful but I want him to realise there is always a light, sometimes the light is hope and other times.. you can't see the light so shrouded by darkness is it. Even if you think you have seen it.. there can be more than one light. Heh, boy, have I found that out.

My eyes have felt strained all day today but still I'm here typing away to no one in particular because I'm not totally sure who actually reads this.. Oh wait. I know Mr J does. Yay for him! (haha. I am sooo applauding you here good sir)

Tomorrow I'm wearing my ONE dress (black.. duh) over these black trousers. It'll rock. I'm deciding whether or not to wear black eye make-up. It depends on how I feel aye.

Right now I can't stop listening to two songs, both recommended by YOU Mr J. Odd. Ben Folds Five - Evaporated. (beautiful) and Jimmy Eats World - Bleed American (GRR RAH... in such a lovely way)

I was doing my other English Literature essay all evening and I just finished it. Woo. Well it is finished to me because I want it to be finished. Haha. Fair enough some may say. Fair-e enough. But the point is I was just moving the wheely chair away from the computer so I could change the song on this laptop, when my foot slipped and just beneath my toes my foot hit the printer and the shelf it is on. Can I have a HUGE 'ouch' please people? Dammit.

Anyway. Hope y'all like my new template and um, I'm off because I want to lie down... despite the fact I'm really restless I know I should be tired. Mehhh.