I have to profess a love for Muse's song 'Time Is Running Out' and even though I don't know what it is about the song that I really like. I still really like it. That honestly makes sense.

And since I now have Kazaa Lite (HOO-FUCKING-RAH) I can download songs, though I'm going to have to only download a few at a time since if my dad finds out I'm downloading songs again I will be killed. A lot of times. Haha.

Tobacco looks like spider's legs. Thought I'd randomly add that in since it has been on my mind for the past five minutes.

Today Alex made me really happy and bubbly because I was unhappy and then he phoned me which meant I could curl up on my bed and talk to him and have fun and not be bothered by the darkness I could feel attempting to smother me. It nearly did but he just made me all happy and thankful for his friendship. I told him so as well.

I then had to get dressed, pick up my sister, have an argument with my Nana Jean about whether I was allowed to go up the pub to take my sister to my mum and dad. I just hated that. It isn't her fucking business. I sound so mean but a) she fucking hates me and b) she always picks a fight with me over stupid things. My sister is perfect in her eyes and I'm a fuck-up. It annoys me.

A lot.

I got to the pub and me and Chris started to build pyramids out of the beer mats we found. My sister then asked the barmaid for some more so she can do it as well and got a shitload. Of course my sister tried but couldn't really build it so I ended up with the shitload of barmats and managed to build a dahmn good pyramid if I say so myself. Chris just messed around and made me laugh a lot.

When I got home I experienced loads of different emotions. Talking to Jason helped since he understnads me... usually. Though he could be making that all up just to humour me. Haha. But I doubt that.

Will and Hannah made me laugh too cos I drew a HERBCAT.. which I'd made up previously and they were all excited and shit. It was funny.... okay seriously my herbcat rawked. Haha. That's serious by the way.

I don't think I want to go to college but ya know once I get past the first day and get into the routine of it all then I'll be fine. Honest. Heh. Yeh. (Everyone at college will hate me)