oblivious
to me
and my impending
Death.

i remember
his kisses
and the way
with an admiring
gaze
he stares at me
and wonders
what horrors
i've seen.
{and survived?}

[just]

[not at all]

quickly memories
shift
into his glare
as he degraded me
in front of people
and told the world
how i made him sick
with my habits

and past.

never before have i
hated anyone

with such a passion
as i hate

myself.

as i stand
on this ledge
with my feet on
the edge.
i lean forwards
and feel the breeze.
i lean forwards
and learn how

to fly.

[in a blink of an eye]

i fall downwards
floor rushing to me

no more
will
i remember
no more
can i live
no more
no more
the words always
echoing in my
head.