The past couple of days have truly been uneventful. I played cards yesterday instead of going to General Studies, or at least the teacher was ill so there was NO G.S and I ended up playing cards with John. Woo. Haha. I won a game of snap, Go Fish and blackjack. I don't know why 'Go Fish' has to have capitals but the other two don't. It is just the way of life. Yehh.

That was fun actually. Had continual laughs.

Hm. I then had English Literature where I discovered I got a B+ for my Frankenstein essay.. AND the highest grade anyone in the class got was actually a B+. Woo. Go me. *parties*

Idlewild is music that is suited perfectly to me right now. Their lyrics and his voice that holds plenty of raw emotion moves me.

I find myself constantly singing along to songs about hard-break and sadness. I just sang along to Dashboard Confessional - The Brilliant Dance and I lost my breath because I sang too many lines and didn't breath for a bit. I don't know why this is significant it just is.

Oh and I started singing a Pantera song that begins "I fucked your girlfriend last night, while you snored and drooled" Haha. Just walking around college singing that, and why not? I mean.. apart from the obvious really rude and blunt sentences. Hehe. I must learn this song off by heart fully because it rocks.

Hm. It truly has been.. slow the past two days. Not boring exactly, just slow.

I'm filled with anger, angst, fury, worry and.. bitter sadness. It's an uncomfortable mix since I'm usually numb anyway and these feelings slip in between the numbness.

Hm. The other night I wrote this prologue and when I can I'll try and copy it over onto this laptop and put it up here.. well I want to send it to Mr J actually, I want his opinion. Honest opinion matey. *salutes Mr J*

I don't know why it is all so boring but after Friday.. I think everything has slowed down for me.. I think life has become.. what I wanted it to be; dead.