None of you fucking know or fucking understand. None of you. And it is no one else's fault BUT MINE because (and this is the fucking truth) I'm keeping it all inside now.

I don't want to. Heh. I just can't say anything correctly anymore. It all just sucks.

I didn't go to college today not because I was ill, as I told everyone, but because I couldn't fucking function. My depression is taking over again and instead of me making it obvious something is making me keep it all inside.

I really don't feel anything and it scares me so much. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes because it all hurts so much now. So much.

*sigh*

I'll just be ignored.

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I've had a great two days though in that my conversations with Mr J have been amazing and just.. yeah... real fun. =)

So I'm sorry to you Mr J for being such a shitty, fucked up bitch. But I'll see you in seven days time!