Friday night I ended up not going to the cinema which was, overall, fiine. =) I have been talking to Mr J so fucking much lately and it just.. I can't describe how much it means to me. When I get really low and sad he was there talking to me and just telling me that it would all be okay.

I know that if we could we'd talk all night and still be ready to talk some more. Heh. And the best thing? I'm seeing him in .. A DAY! Woo. It is now Tuesday and tomorrow I'm going to see him. OH MY GOODNESS AM I EXCITED OR WHAT?! Haha. I truly am. Oh oh oh, guess what? It is 34 hours until I see him.

Haha. I just worked out the number of hours, with glee. Yes.

Ohh and Sunday night Sean and I ended up going to this mini gig in a pub, for free!! We saw a band called Freezepop and they were fricking amazing. They got both of us so hyper. We are now on a sugary candy Freezepop high. Hehe. It was really nice actually. Yay.

Oh and I bought new clothes; a tee-shirt that says "Pokey" and it has a horse above it, blue cords that were for men but now I'm wearing them babah AND some long red flarey trousers. They all rock soo much. And today I found a red scarf, some bangles and a red necklace in a charity shop. Yes.

I keep having these 'attacks' of doubt about whether Mr J will a) like me once he's been around me an hour or so, b) he'll enjoy his time at mah house and c) whether I'm good enough to have such a good friend. He's so good to me and I just feel like I let him down sometimes. *sigh* I hope I don't.

THE INSANITY OF IT ALL!!! [random.. random]

To-morrow I have Biology and I don't know if I am looking forward to it or not. I mean, we're studying the heart so that's good because I will actually ENJOY that. Haha. But sometimes that class just drags me down.. DOOOOOWNN.

Oh, and tomorrow is Eid so I have been invited round to Nadirah's. I might go after I've phoned Mr J (while he is on the coach!! hehe) so I can spend the evening there, since I won't be able to speak to Mr J on the internet and for some reason everyone seems to be really grumpy lately. Yes. Except for Loley who I have MISSED. *sigh*

I see the heart on a chain lying on the floor draped over the 'legs' of the fan. And it makes me smile and makes me feel free. I hope he doesn't come after me. (that rhymed babah) (That only makes sense to me right? You're alllll lost) (ahh well)

Oh, and I'm giving up smoking. I have one smoke left and then I'm going to buy, like, five packets of Spearmint Polos and just suck on a polo whenever I want a smoke. It's my plan, it's going to work.

And a fly just flew into my ear, EWWW.